“HAPPY INTERNATIONAL WOMEN’S DAY TO ALL! May we eventually live in a world where every nation recognizes that women’s rights are human rights!”
Hey guys, it’s me, Anna. I’ve decided to start weekly posts that I will call the #FridayFrenchFry. They’ll be short writings by me or actors that want to write in and share about their experiences. For me, being a talent manager, I have the unique position of being on a few dozen journeys with my actors as we navigate this crazy industry. Alongside them, and also on my own, I get hit with major doses of Hollywood. It’s the good, the bad, and the ugly. I have a lot of feelings about what I experience so hopefully these posts will be reflective, educational, and inspirational. They’ll finally get me out of my 240-character jail that is Twitter. (I do love Twitter, though.)
Creating this blog was an easy decision for me.
I was already doing lunches all over town and thought it could be fun if I recorded and published them so actors could hear crucial insider info straight from the source. Then, on New Years Day 2019, on the balcony of my cruise suite somewhere in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean, I was listening to a compilation of motivational speeches (don’t laugh at me, guys). Someone said the thing we’ve all heard before that goes something like, “Don’t ask what you will get from your community. Stop thinking you deserve something. Start thinking what you will give to your community. What is it that you will share? That is when the magic will happen.” And that’s when I settled that Actors For Lunch would grow into something bigger with even more information. That would be my big give to the community. Plus, I love writing and teaching (and having another hobby is AMAZING for my mind), so I’m excited to see where this goes!
But just like actors can face moments of doubt, especially when things aren’t going in their favor, I have my insecurities, too.
What if people think my blog is dumb? What if my writing sucks and I don’t know it? What if I say something that’s politically incorrect and ruin myself? And what about the internet trolls!? To be honest, as the countdown to re-launching this site was getting into the single digits, these thoughts started consuming me. I found myself obsessing with what everyone would think of me and all the things that could go terribly wrong. I was suddenly imagining how random people I went to middle school with (and don’t even talk to anymore) would judge me- what the hell!? This really wasn’t like me.
Eventually, I thought of my actors, who seem to keep on going and going, believing in this dream that they have, and that things will be okay. They’re following their hearts and doing what makes them happy without any guaranteed outcome. They put themselves out there and make no apologies. Damn, talk about motivational! And it’s true, if we don’t just go for it and say fuck it to what anyone else thinks, we’ll never really know what we can accomplish. We must let go of any fear. It’s the only thing holding us back.
See, I like to think that if I can work hard on a consistent basis, turn off negative thoughts and continue to be a good person, eventually and hopefully, good things will come. Law of attraction, right?
And, if anything, if the worst comes true and everyone hates this site and shuns me like an Amish person that came back to the village with a camera crew, then at least I can run and cry to my family and close friends who apparently love me no matter what. They’re always my safe place and I thank The Universe for that!